you got to believe this. your highness is using BAWANG shampoo. HAHAHAS. i thought it would be nice to share this EXPLODING news. hopefully china shampoo will work its magic and my hair shall drop/dry no more. (:
oh yeah, leexianjie gave my particulars to army!!! as some guarantor or something, can't remember. die, now if he dio dai ji, then i'll dio dai ji also. shall ask him to treat me more breakfast/lunch/dinner. his meagre salary is going to be eaten up by me. horrays. he's probably going to regret so much to have me as BFF. =D
i have decided to hold a MINI party at for twenty first(: whoohoo! shall check out the venues.casual poet is one of them! i want pretty pretty cafe~ (:
blessed 21st birthday JEANNETTE! have a blasting time! see you on sunday! (=
LEONY birthday!
Monday, September 21, 2009 @ 10:47 PM
i went to LEON's 21st birthday party last sunday! whoohoo~
he's the most BUBBLY and HELPFUL friend i have ever known!
definitely someone i could always count to whenever i absent myself for HC102 lectures! OpppS! :p
HAHA! my partner-in-crime! HEES. :p
happy birthday Leony!
may you continue be bubbly and kind-hearted! :D
and may you continue to be my best buddy at school! YAYS.
was doing BSF work and came upon this,
Let us watch and pray, lest there be in any of us an evil heart of unbelief;
lest we depart in our most secret thought from simple faith in the living God;
lest beneath a fair exterior we yield our jewel of faith to the solicitation of some unholy passion.
Let us especially set watch at our strongest point. Just because we are so confident of being strong there, we are liable to leave it unguarded and unwatched, and therefore open to the foe. So shall we be saved from a fall that shall shut the gates of Canaan against us, and consign us to an unknown and untimely grave.
-- F.B. Myer
this is not apple
Tuesday, September 15, 2009 @ 11:30 PM
something's wrong with hp darling.hmm. the audio isn't working well. gotta call them up on thursday. why aren't they 24 hours?!
today's class test was a complete flop and I'm prepared to get a big fat zero. yes, and i'm so dead. :/
thankyou songli so much! so nice of you to come down specially to pass me the present and to chit chat with me! love you to bits! *hugggsss*
thankyouangeeeel for the yummy choco and the card! i know who you're!!!HAHAHAS. THANKYOU senior! :D
thankyou leexianjie for taking time to edit my ASSay! sorry that i asked you a really dumbass question. Aiyah, you know how much i hate acronymns! and the army has to use it so often. not my fault right. :p
back to my readings. (:
*anticipating for the public holiday*
joanna.
i died on sunday becos of work and work
Monday, September 14, 2009 @ 5:00 AM
i am translating. i am angmoh assay-ing. 2 assignments due on tuesday and wednesday. thank God I finished BSF last week when there's a break. phew.
i need to finish them quick so I can get neigbour tong and leexianjie to help me check. so i can study for test and quiz on tuesday and wednesday. jiayous.
throw and CATCH!
Saturday, September 12, 2009 @ 11:43 PM
thank God Phile 'O' Friss went good. attendance was great. weather was fantastic, though I still hate sun. and i did not stutter during sharing. :) thank God for Deb & JiaMin who were able to heeeeelp despite your busy schedules. i love Frisbee. yays.
i hope all of you had fun! ;D
oh. i changed my picture at my profile page! took it with twinny, go take it out! i really have a twin, deb! hees. :p
yes. more eyebags
Wednesday, September 9, 2009 @ 6:26 AM
i misplaced my pencil case. damn.
chanel whore
Thursday, September 3, 2009 @ 1:49 AM
i hate to announce it, my "honeymoon" is O-V-E-R. :( i love to announce it, my "honeymoon" is O-V-E-R. :)
Yups, total contradicting feelings I've had during these twenty-one days, I'm thankful to God that He managed to keep me sane throughout this roller-coaster-ride-like period. there were lots of whining, complaining i made, especially to sistas at shalom and Rui over msn. heartfelt thankyous for lending so many ears. Also, thankyou Yin, Choo, Bel.
i'm glad i made the decision to attend chinese christian fellowship (ccf). A huge leap from english to mandarin, whether it is the prayers, hymns or even bible!!! though i'm a chinese major, but HAHA i am no good at chinese verses. :p more work, yes, but kind of fun!
it's true that we get energy from God. my tueday is my most lectures day, class starts from 830am and only ends at around 5pm, really tiring and sian. CCF is smacked right after class, and like what i do believe, this is God's perfect timing, i am happier and felt lot more refreshed after it. :) He gave me the right amount of spiritual rest during the time with fellow 弟兄姐妹s. Yayahs.
bought stuff at ilovelrh.com and glamourplace(: i hope my online shopping barang barang comes quickly so EGGGGGCITING. :D
i watched "Coco before Chanel" with yin on thursday; well, i like it! except that the film didn't really talk much about how Gabrielle 'Coco' Chanel went to the top of the fashion world from a humble background. Audrey Tatou is really sexy! hahaha:p i'm in love with Chanel.
joanna.
coach and chanel
Friday, August 28, 2009 @ 9:33 PM
I WANT TO GET THESE(:
if I had no bank loan and NTU study loan to worry after college if I had forgo my go-to-taiwan-and-be-a-true-blue/green-taiwanese trip if I had forgotten about the thinking-of-buying-ipod/itouch plan if I had a scholarship so I would not need to worry about the loans and the scary interest rates
it is always good to live in a fantasy for a short moment when you're sick and happen to google "coco before chanel". =)
joanna.
i miss courage
Thursday, August 27, 2009 @ 11:59 PM
Joshua 1:9
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.
约书亚 1:9
我岂没有吩咐你吗?你当刚强壮胆。不要惧怕,也不要惊惶。因为你无论往哪里去,耶和华你的神必与你同在。
hits me.
Sunday, August 23, 2009 @ 12:34 PM
i don't know why. but i am actually a suspicious swine flu case. i am really ... causing so much trouble to you guys. and i want to attend service.
i am going to miss a whole week of class. that's really a lot. ):
i feel so incompetent.
alive
Wednesday, August 19, 2009 @ 1:07 AM
amidst all these stupid stressed up, negative emotions i've felt, something was very wrong with me.there's always that someone i neglected.
the big guy up there and over the place. GOD.
i always forget the fact that i'm breathing every second is entirely God's grace. it is so easy to get "drunk" in all these procastinating when work starts sinking in.
i prayed and somehow, my procastination stopped and i'm actually slightly more productive than the previous week. i've been printing notes (something which i enjoyed doing when i was in ngeeann), and joting down notes and being thick-skinned and borrowed classmates' notes to revise.
at least, when i was in the lecture for that dreadful "An Introduction to Chinese Language" course, i actually knew what the laoshi was saying. and I'm really thankful that he was willing to spend 1 hour to revise on the first lecture notes. xiexie laoshi :) that big, kind action of his made my confused brain clearer.
i'm going to attend my first angmoh elective's lecture. i missed the first lect last week because i couldn't get the elective on STARS (Student Automated Registration System). so hopefully, i can understand. jiayous qiaoanna!. for the kaypohs! HAHA. i'm taking HG101, Fundamentals of Linguistics: Mind & Meaning. okay lah, i'm quite kaypoh also lah.
anw, do keep me in your prayers cos uni life is stressful and i don't want to lose my identity in this coporate-like rat race. (: stay saint man.
i'm getting more and more ahlian-ish. next time, can just call me aunty ah lian. HAHAs. :D
or the STARS system to choose electives ('grab' would be a better verb though)
everything in NTU just makes me wants to spell H-E-A-D-A-C-H-E.
i don't remember feeling that lost when i started my poly life.
i wonder is it because i had taken things for granted before or ... ?
hmm. ):
i wrote "Praise the Lord" and stuck it on my wall
yet deep down I always question myself "Am I really praising the Lord through my heart, words and actions or am I just doing it for the sake of doing it?"
thanks for the sms meshell and cherylloh. (:
going for lecture.
bye bye.
joannnnnnna. huitiiiiing.
i like ballet(:
Sunday, August 9, 2009 @ 6:08 PM
Mother prefers "Joanna", cos she will pronounce "Celeste" as chalet. NOOOOO! i can't allow this to happen. so ta-da! J-O-A-N-N-A.my angmoh mia.
from behindthename.com:
Joanna: English and Polish form of Latin Iohanna, which was derived from Greek Ιωαννα (Ioanna), the feminine form of Ioannes (see JOHN). This was the name of a follower of Jesus in the New Testament. In the Middle Ages in England it was used as a Latinized form of Joan, and it became common as an English given name in the 19th century.
John: English form of Iohannes, the Latin form of the Greek name Ιωαννης (Ioannes), itself derived from the Hebrew name יוֹחָנָן (Yochanan) meaning "YAHWEH is gracious" (God is gracious). This name owes its popularity to two New Testament characters, both highly revered saints. The first was John the Baptist, a Jewish ascetic who was considered the forerunner of Jesus Christ. The second was the apostle John, who was also the author of the fourth Gospel and Revelation.
This name was initially more common among Eastern Christians in the Byzantine Empire, but it flourished in Western Europe after the First Crusade. In England it became extremely popular: during the later Middle Ages it was given to approximately a fifth of all English boys.
thus, Joanna = God is gracious. :) and yes, our God is indeed a God full of grace and righteousness. further reminded myself that it is the grace of God that kept me going(and nothing else) and it is the grace of God that allows me to be saved without even doing anything in return and this is what makes Christianity so different and unique from others and i hope to be more graceful as I grow old, wahahaha!
do not be mistaken, dear darlings. i like my birth name, FOR REAL. i just dislike the fact that i'm knowing more huitings. nay, it is not that i hate them or something, i still love them. :) but it is that weird tingly feeling that makes me feel -.-. i'm not sure whether you understand my point or not. you know those wu li gan (无力感)when people said like "ohhhhhh, another huiting", "my friend's name is also called huiting", yes, it is something like that lah.
i would still prefer those who know me as huiting, to call me that. :)
anyway, the second and third pics are showing ballerinas from a Russian dance company, The Big Ballet(: i'm soooo going to buy the most expensive ticket if they ever come to Singapore to perform(: fantastic how they overthrown the dancers-must-be-thin idea" (i'm of course not referring to dancers who don't grow fat no matter what they eat, e.g. cherylloh & jamielow hahas.) i think it would be nice if the society is able to appreciate plus-sized dancers too. =)
washing machine is my bff
Saturday, August 8, 2009 @ 12:13 AM
my new bed is gonna be black, yes, BLACK.
the coolest colour beside pink. HAHA.
give myself a pat on shoulder, i've washed two blankets, two pillow cases, two bedsheets. Yays! alright lah, machine wash only. this is not bad le hor. don't complain. :p i even hang them out of the window. yes, using that "tiko", bamboo poles lah.
ikea is so wonderful:D
having ikea at tampines is even wuuuuuuunderful(:
bought lovely hangers, 10 for $7.80, and foldable hanger/clothes stand at $7.90 sooooo affordable and i love these lovely prices.
more edits later. (:
back to packing.
jiayou jiayou jiayous!
edits:
left with shampoo, etc, cleaning material, etc, utensils and many more.
shifting house kills
Friday, August 7, 2009 @ 1:35 AM
i am so upset with myself. darn. i haven't finished packing and i'm supposed to move on saturday which is like TOMORROW. HELLO CHENHUITING!!! Wakeupppppp!!! am soooo frustrated with myself. ): this is bad. :((((
school is starting and yet i'm so not prepared. arrrrrrgh. :( i need to be in mugger mode. uni is too expensive, can't afford to get lousy grades. i can just kill myself if i allow slackness to enter into my life.
all these proved that i'm not having complete faith in God. ahhhhhh. i need to trust and have faith in Almighty Father, totally. dear Lord, please grant me the strength to go through all these. i need to be more patient, though it seems impossible. ah no, with God all things are possible. trust trust trust.
ps. leexianjie! we need D-I-N-N-E-R. i haven't seen you like for a thousand years!
high and low for angmoh name
Wednesday, August 5, 2009 @ 11:08 PM
i'm think i'm BALDING. mum and jie were like telling me that too... DIE. am i going to be following the steps of chomingxiu! (anw, what happen to ahmeng ah? missing?) ahhhh. i need some china bawang shampoo to grow my lost hair back
i'm thankful i talked to sab darling about my camp thingy, and it is really God's blessing that I managed to leave. i think it is really not my style to do it. and the smses's encouragement from hab girls that kept me going (:
anw, for those worrying, mummy is doing fine. just that she always grumble that i eat too much i know she still loves me, no matter how fat i am but it is really time to keep fit liao.
i've got fantastic news to share! Watsons has membership card, only $5 for lifetime membership now this is what i called SUPER COOLNESS you could redeem points and have cash rebates. Woohoo and if you purchase the card within their promo period (which is now lah), you're entitled to receive a book of discounts! and no, i'm not paid to do this. though i secretly wish i was those star bloggers
bought my most-loved neutrogena deep whitening masks and some cosmestics refill. my makeup pouch is now filled with loves. huiting's a happy girl now! i love Watsons and Watsons loves me
McCafe is having national day promotion $3.95 for every frappes, u.p. $4.95
omg. i sound like some aunty... nah, don't care! i'm already one!
people! there're too many huitings i know. and it is getting disturbing. and i have sought permission from papa and mama that i may go find angmoh name to use so Help! a name that is not funny and good to pronounce. thankyouverymuch.
life is just too chim
Sunday, August 2, 2009 @ 5:07 PM
I've Learned...
I’ve learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them. I’ve learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don’t care back. And it’s not the end of the world.
I’ve learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it. I’ve learned that it’s not what you have in your life, but who you have in your life that counts.
I’ve learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes. After that, you’d better know something.
I’ve learned that you shouldn’t compare yourself to the best others can do, but to the best you can do.
I’ve learned that it’s not what happens to people, It’s what they do about it. I’ve learned that no matter how thin you slice it, there are always two sides.
I’ve learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them. I’ve learned that you can keep going long after you think you can’t.
I’ve learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done regardless of the consequences. I’ve learned that there are people who love you dearly, but just don’t know how to show it.
I’ve learned that sometimes when I’m angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn’t give me the right to be cruel. I’ve learned that true friendship continues to grow even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.
I’ve learned that just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them to doesn’t mean they don’t love you with all they have. I’ve learned that no matter how good a friend is, they’re going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.
I’ve learned that it isn’t always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself. I’ve learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken, the world doesn’t stop for your grief.
I’ve learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become. I’ve learned that just because two people argue, it doesn’t mean that they don’t love each other.
And just because they don’t argue, it doesn’t mean they do. I’ve learned that sometimes you have to put the individual ahead of their actions. I’ve learned that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.
I’ve learned that no matter the consequences, those who are honest with themselves get farther in life. I’ve learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don’t even know you.
I’ve learned that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help. I’ve learned that writing,as well as talking, can ease emotional pains.
I’ve learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon. I’ve learned that it’s hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people’s feelings and standing up for what you believe.
I’ve learned to love and be loved. I’ve learned…
- Omar Washington
read this on Rui's blog. (Link) thankyou Rui for sharing. (:
thought-provoking poem. there're just some words that pricks me so hard.
off to pack Again. :( see ya after saturday.
feeling old
@ 2:18 AM
sorry michelle. ): i was dead tired. had to let you do the baking on your own.
so much packing need to be done :( whether it is for hall camp or for the moving to hall. it just left me feeling so annoyed by myself for having so much stuff.
i hope von had settled the core modules timetable with the admin people for us because it is honestly just pure stupidity if you do not allow us to do translation modules and there're like no other electives that we could apply for given the sucky timings.
Combined BP YF dry run today(yesterday) at Galilee BP church was pretty much okay, maybe except for the fact that i knew no one there, and it was really awkward trying to strike up conversations. (official combined bp yf will be two weeks from now, 15 August.)
I felt I was going through my first day of school HAHA. I prolly caught a cherielohjiajia's disease cos I remember no names AT All. :p
But thankfully, met a few juniors and seniors from NgeeAnn :), and it was good trying to talk about our (ex)school, that seemed so different in our eyes. there was this senior from Life BP(i think), who graduated from Early Childhood, who told me NgeeAnn used to catch girls who wore shorts and slippers to school. -GASP- (credits: Bel)
honestly, that's like the official poly attire already. :p Amazing yea. (:
anw, the loh sistas and I are still bewildered by one sms. Mm...
i hope i will be not be a game master for combined yf next year . i've been game master since I started attending combined yf. that's like 3 years of game master. -.- tell me, am i such a 'game' person?
i don't know whether i should go for pre-camp tomorrow(today). i really need some time to be alone and PACK and finish up my BSF. Hmm...
i'll be off to camp from Mon to Sat. then on Sat, there's going to be breakout at ECP. i'll be moving on National day(sun). CHIN(my course's acronym -.- ) has a whole day activity held for year 1s on the next day(mon). tuesday, start of uni life and bukit panjang tuition.
I can't do any translation modules because the time clashes with core's. SIANS.
the system just killed my only purpose of choosing NTU instead of NUS. -.-"
and there isn't any decent Contemporary China modules that is available.
call me a wonderwoman
Monday, July 27, 2009 @ 1:55 PM
thankyou God for so holy and faithful thankyou God for being a comfort and rescue thankyou God for being the way, the true, the light thankyou God for being my God and my King thankyou God for being the reason I live thankyou God for pulling me back when I am at lost thankyou God for the brothers and sisters-in-Christ thankyou God for the way when I am clueless thankyou God for the encouragements and jiayous thankyou God for the blessings(:
-- my work at Isetan Scotts had ended with a big bang at mrbeancafe&bar. =) thankyou liwen for the eleven days thankyou kweiteng for covering my duty thankyou ruyu for the half day of nonsensical nonsense thankyou my dearest sweethearts who came down and said "hello" (: thankyou wuhan darlings + yin + jess for the supper time.
i'll be having NTU christianfellowship camp from tomorrow till fri. then my Hall Camp from next Monday till next Fri. :D and yes, i can finally go for bsf and sunday service, even during camp! :p somehow good to have someone from bp church as a camp leader. HAHA.
you got to believe this. your highness is using BAWANG shampoo. HAHAHAS. i thought it would be nice to share this EXPLODING news. hopefully china shampoo will work its magic and my hair shall drop/dry no more. (:
oh yeah, leexianjie gave my particulars to army!!! as some guarantor or something, can't remember. die, now if he dio dai ji, then i'll dio dai ji also. shall ask him to treat me more breakfast/lunch/dinner. his meagre salary is going to be eaten up by me. horrays. he's probably going to regret so much to have me as BFF. =D
i have decided to hold a MINI party at for twenty first(: whoohoo! shall check out the venues.casual poet is one of them! i want pretty pretty cafe~ (:
blessed 21st birthday JEANNETTE! have a blasting time! see you on sunday! (=
LEONY birthday!
Monday, September 21, 2009 @ 10:47 PM
i went to LEON's 21st birthday party last sunday! whoohoo~
he's the most BUBBLY and HELPFUL friend i have ever known!
definitely someone i could always count to whenever i absent myself for HC102 lectures! OpppS! :p
HAHA! my partner-in-crime! HEES. :p
happy birthday Leony!
may you continue be bubbly and kind-hearted! :D
and may you continue to be my best buddy at school! YAYS.
was doing BSF work and came upon this,
Let us watch and pray, lest there be in any of us an evil heart of unbelief;
lest we depart in our most secret thought from simple faith in the living God;
lest beneath a fair exterior we yield our jewel of faith to the solicitation of some unholy passion.
Let us especially set watch at our strongest point. Just because we are so confident of being strong there, we are liable to leave it unguarded and unwatched, and therefore open to the foe. So shall we be saved from a fall that shall shut the gates of Canaan against us, and consign us to an unknown and untimely grave.
-- F.B. Myer
this is not apple
Tuesday, September 15, 2009 @ 11:30 PM
something's wrong with hp darling.hmm. the audio isn't working well. gotta call them up on thursday. why aren't they 24 hours?!
today's class test was a complete flop and I'm prepared to get a big fat zero. yes, and i'm so dead. :/
thankyou songli so much! so nice of you to come down specially to pass me the present and to chit chat with me! love you to bits! *hugggsss*
thankyouangeeeel for the yummy choco and the card! i know who you're!!!HAHAHAS. THANKYOU senior! :D
thankyou leexianjie for taking time to edit my ASSay! sorry that i asked you a really dumbass question. Aiyah, you know how much i hate acronymns! and the army has to use it so often. not my fault right. :p
back to my readings. (:
*anticipating for the public holiday*
joanna.
i died on sunday becos of work and work
Monday, September 14, 2009 @ 5:00 AM
i am translating. i am angmoh assay-ing. 2 assignments due on tuesday and wednesday. thank God I finished BSF last week when there's a break. phew.
i need to finish them quick so I can get neigbour tong and leexianjie to help me check. so i can study for test and quiz on tuesday and wednesday. jiayous.
throw and CATCH!
Saturday, September 12, 2009 @ 11:43 PM
thank God Phile 'O' Friss went good. attendance was great. weather was fantastic, though I still hate sun. and i did not stutter during sharing. :) thank God for Deb & JiaMin who were able to heeeeelp despite your busy schedules. i love Frisbee. yays.
i hope all of you had fun! ;D
oh. i changed my picture at my profile page! took it with twinny, go take it out! i really have a twin, deb! hees. :p
yes. more eyebags
Wednesday, September 9, 2009 @ 6:26 AM
i misplaced my pencil case. damn.
chanel whore
Thursday, September 3, 2009 @ 1:49 AM
i hate to announce it, my "honeymoon" is O-V-E-R. :( i love to announce it, my "honeymoon" is O-V-E-R. :)
Yups, total contradicting feelings I've had during these twenty-one days, I'm thankful to God that He managed to keep me sane throughout this roller-coaster-ride-like period. there were lots of whining, complaining i made, especially to sistas at shalom and Rui over msn. heartfelt thankyous for lending so many ears. Also, thankyou Yin, Choo, Bel.
i'm glad i made the decision to attend chinese christian fellowship (ccf). A huge leap from english to mandarin, whether it is the prayers, hymns or even bible!!! though i'm a chinese major, but HAHA i am no good at chinese verses. :p more work, yes, but kind of fun!
it's true that we get energy from God. my tueday is my most lectures day, class starts from 830am and only ends at around 5pm, really tiring and sian. CCF is smacked right after class, and like what i do believe, this is God's perfect timing, i am happier and felt lot more refreshed after it. :) He gave me the right amount of spiritual rest during the time with fellow 弟兄姐妹s. Yayahs.
bought stuff at ilovelrh.com and glamourplace(: i hope my online shopping barang barang comes quickly so EGGGGGCITING. :D
i watched "Coco before Chanel" with yin on thursday; well, i like it! except that the film didn't really talk much about how Gabrielle 'Coco' Chanel went to the top of the fashion world from a humble background. Audrey Tatou is really sexy! hahaha:p i'm in love with Chanel.
joanna.
coach and chanel
Friday, August 28, 2009 @ 9:33 PM
I WANT TO GET THESE(:
if I had no bank loan and NTU study loan to worry after college if I had forgo my go-to-taiwan-and-be-a-true-blue/green-taiwanese trip if I had forgotten about the thinking-of-buying-ipod/itouch plan if I had a scholarship so I would not need to worry about the loans and the scary interest rates
it is always good to live in a fantasy for a short moment when you're sick and happen to google "coco before chanel". =)
joanna.
i miss courage
Thursday, August 27, 2009 @ 11:59 PM
Joshua 1:9
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.
约书亚 1:9
我岂没有吩咐你吗?你当刚强壮胆。不要惧怕,也不要惊惶。因为你无论往哪里去,耶和华你的神必与你同在。
hits me.
Sunday, August 23, 2009 @ 12:34 PM
i don't know why. but i am actually a suspicious swine flu case. i am really ... causing so much trouble to you guys. and i want to attend service.
i am going to miss a whole week of class. that's really a lot. ):
i feel so incompetent.
alive
Wednesday, August 19, 2009 @ 1:07 AM
amidst all these stupid stressed up, negative emotions i've felt, something was very wrong with me.there's always that someone i neglected.
the big guy up there and over the place. GOD.
i always forget the fact that i'm breathing every second is entirely God's grace. it is so easy to get "drunk" in all these procastinating when work starts sinking in.
i prayed and somehow, my procastination stopped and i'm actually slightly more productive than the previous week. i've been printing notes (something which i enjoyed doing when i was in ngeeann), and joting down notes and being thick-skinned and borrowed classmates' notes to revise.
at least, when i was in the lecture for that dreadful "An Introduction to Chinese Language" course, i actually knew what the laoshi was saying. and I'm really thankful that he was willing to spend 1 hour to revise on the first lecture notes. xiexie laoshi :) that big, kind action of his made my confused brain clearer.
i'm going to attend my first angmoh elective's lecture. i missed the first lect last week because i couldn't get the elective on STARS (Student Automated Registration System). so hopefully, i can understand. jiayous qiaoanna!. for the kaypohs! HAHA. i'm taking HG101, Fundamentals of Linguistics: Mind & Meaning. okay lah, i'm quite kaypoh also lah.
anw, do keep me in your prayers cos uni life is stressful and i don't want to lose my identity in this coporate-like rat race. (: stay saint man.
i'm getting more and more ahlian-ish. next time, can just call me aunty ah lian. HAHAs. :D
or the STARS system to choose electives ('grab' would be a better verb though)
everything in NTU just makes me wants to spell H-E-A-D-A-C-H-E.
i don't remember feeling that lost when i started my poly life.
i wonder is it because i had taken things for granted before or ... ?
hmm. ):
i wrote "Praise the Lord" and stuck it on my wall
yet deep down I always question myself "Am I really praising the Lord through my heart, words and actions or am I just doing it for the sake of doing it?"
thanks for the sms meshell and cherylloh. (:
going for lecture.
bye bye.
joannnnnnna. huitiiiiing.
i like ballet(:
Sunday, August 9, 2009 @ 6:08 PM
Mother prefers "Joanna", cos she will pronounce "Celeste" as chalet. NOOOOO! i can't allow this to happen. so ta-da! J-O-A-N-N-A.my angmoh mia.
from behindthename.com:
Joanna: English and Polish form of Latin Iohanna, which was derived from Greek Ιωαννα (Ioanna), the feminine form of Ioannes (see JOHN). This was the name of a follower of Jesus in the New Testament. In the Middle Ages in England it was used as a Latinized form of Joan, and it became common as an English given name in the 19th century.
John: English form of Iohannes, the Latin form of the Greek name Ιωαννης (Ioannes), itself derived from the Hebrew name יוֹחָנָן (Yochanan) meaning "YAHWEH is gracious" (God is gracious). This name owes its popularity to two New Testament characters, both highly revered saints. The first was John the Baptist, a Jewish ascetic who was considered the forerunner of Jesus Christ. The second was the apostle John, who was also the author of the fourth Gospel and Revelation.
This name was initially more common among Eastern Christians in the Byzantine Empire, but it flourished in Western Europe after the First Crusade. In England it became extremely popular: during the later Middle Ages it was given to approximately a fifth of all English boys.
thus, Joanna = God is gracious. :) and yes, our God is indeed a God full of grace and righteousness. further reminded myself that it is the grace of God that kept me going(and nothing else) and it is the grace of God that allows me to be saved without even doing anything in return and this is what makes Christianity so different and unique from others and i hope to be more graceful as I grow old, wahahaha!
do not be mistaken, dear darlings. i like my birth name, FOR REAL. i just dislike the fact that i'm knowing more huitings. nay, it is not that i hate them or something, i still love them. :) but it is that weird tingly feeling that makes me feel -.-. i'm not sure whether you understand my point or not. you know those wu li gan (无力感)when people said like "ohhhhhh, another huiting", "my friend's name is also called huiting", yes, it is something like that lah.
i would still prefer those who know me as huiting, to call me that. :)
anyway, the second and third pics are showing ballerinas from a Russian dance company, The Big Ballet(: i'm soooo going to buy the most expensive ticket if they ever come to Singapore to perform(: fantastic how they overthrown the dancers-must-be-thin idea" (i'm of course not referring to dancers who don't grow fat no matter what they eat, e.g. cherylloh & jamielow hahas.) i think it would be nice if the society is able to appreciate plus-sized dancers too. =)
washing machine is my bff
Saturday, August 8, 2009 @ 12:13 AM
my new bed is gonna be black, yes, BLACK.
the coolest colour beside pink. HAHA.
give myself a pat on shoulder, i've washed two blankets, two pillow cases, two bedsheets. Yays! alright lah, machine wash only. this is not bad le hor. don't complain. :p i even hang them out of the window. yes, using that "tiko", bamboo poles lah.
ikea is so wonderful:D
having ikea at tampines is even wuuuuuuunderful(:
bought lovely hangers, 10 for $7.80, and foldable hanger/clothes stand at $7.90 sooooo affordable and i love these lovely prices.
more edits later. (:
back to packing.
jiayou jiayou jiayous!
edits:
left with shampoo, etc, cleaning material, etc, utensils and many more.
shifting house kills
Friday, August 7, 2009 @ 1:35 AM
i am so upset with myself. darn. i haven't finished packing and i'm supposed to move on saturday which is like TOMORROW. HELLO CHENHUITING!!! Wakeupppppp!!! am soooo frustrated with myself. ): this is bad. :((((
school is starting and yet i'm so not prepared. arrrrrrgh. :( i need to be in mugger mode. uni is too expensive, can't afford to get lousy grades. i can just kill myself if i allow slackness to enter into my life.
all these proved that i'm not having complete faith in God. ahhhhhh. i need to trust and have faith in Almighty Father, totally. dear Lord, please grant me the strength to go through all these. i need to be more patient, though it seems impossible. ah no, with God all things are possible. trust trust trust.
ps. leexianjie! we need D-I-N-N-E-R. i haven't seen you like for a thousand years!
high and low for angmoh name
Wednesday, August 5, 2009 @ 11:08 PM
i'm think i'm BALDING. mum and jie were like telling me that too... DIE. am i going to be following the steps of chomingxiu! (anw, what happen to ahmeng ah? missing?) ahhhh. i need some china bawang shampoo to grow my lost hair back
i'm thankful i talked to sab darling about my camp thingy, and it is really God's blessing that I managed to leave. i think it is really not my style to do it. and the smses's encouragement from hab girls that kept me going (:
anw, for those worrying, mummy is doing fine. just that she always grumble that i eat too much i know she still loves me, no matter how fat i am but it is really time to keep fit liao.
i've got fantastic news to share! Watsons has membership card, only $5 for lifetime membership now this is what i called SUPER COOLNESS you could redeem points and have cash rebates. Woohoo and if you purchase the card within their promo period (which is now lah), you're entitled to receive a book of discounts! and no, i'm not paid to do this. though i secretly wish i was those star bloggers
bought my most-loved neutrogena deep whitening masks and some cosmestics refill. my makeup pouch is now filled with loves. huiting's a happy girl now! i love Watsons and Watsons loves me
McCafe is having national day promotion $3.95 for every frappes, u.p. $4.95
omg. i sound like some aunty... nah, don't care! i'm already one!
people! there're too many huitings i know. and it is getting disturbing. and i have sought permission from papa and mama that i may go find angmoh name to use so Help! a name that is not funny and good to pronounce. thankyouverymuch.
life is just too chim
Sunday, August 2, 2009 @ 5:07 PM
I've Learned...
I’ve learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them. I’ve learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don’t care back. And it’s not the end of the world.
I’ve learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it. I’ve learned that it’s not what you have in your life, but who you have in your life that counts.
I’ve learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes. After that, you’d better know something.
I’ve learned that you shouldn’t compare yourself to the best others can do, but to the best you can do.
I’ve learned that it’s not what happens to people, It’s what they do about it. I’ve learned that no matter how thin you slice it, there are always two sides.
I’ve learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them. I’ve learned that you can keep going long after you think you can’t.
I’ve learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done regardless of the consequences. I’ve learned that there are people who love you dearly, but just don’t know how to show it.
I’ve learned that sometimes when I’m angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn’t give me the right to be cruel. I’ve learned that true friendship continues to grow even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.
I’ve learned that just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them to doesn’t mean they don’t love you with all they have. I’ve learned that no matter how good a friend is, they’re going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.
I’ve learned that it isn’t always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself. I’ve learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken, the world doesn’t stop for your grief.
I’ve learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become. I’ve learned that just because two people argue, it doesn’t mean that they don’t love each other.
And just because they don’t argue, it doesn’t mean they do. I’ve learned that sometimes you have to put the individual ahead of their actions. I’ve learned that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.
I’ve learned that no matter the consequences, those who are honest with themselves get farther in life. I’ve learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don’t even know you.
I’ve learned that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help. I’ve learned that writing,as well as talking, can ease emotional pains.
I’ve learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon. I’ve learned that it’s hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people’s feelings and standing up for what you believe.
I’ve learned to love and be loved. I’ve learned…
- Omar Washington
read this on Rui's blog. (Link) thankyou Rui for sharing. (:
thought-provoking poem. there're just some words that pricks me so hard.
off to pack Again. :( see ya after saturday.
feeling old
@ 2:18 AM
sorry michelle. ): i was dead tired. had to let you do the baking on your own.
so much packing need to be done :( whether it is for hall camp or for the moving to hall. it just left me feeling so annoyed by myself for having so much stuff.
i hope von had settled the core modules timetable with the admin people for us because it is honestly just pure stupidity if you do not allow us to do translation modules and there're like no other electives that we could apply for given the sucky timings.
Combined BP YF dry run today(yesterday) at Galilee BP church was pretty much okay, maybe except for the fact that i knew no one there, and it was really awkward trying to strike up conversations. (official combined bp yf will be two weeks from now, 15 August.)
I felt I was going through my first day of school HAHA. I prolly caught a cherielohjiajia's disease cos I remember no names AT All. :p
But thankfully, met a few juniors and seniors from NgeeAnn :), and it was good trying to talk about our (ex)school, that seemed so different in our eyes. there was this senior from Life BP(i think), who graduated from Early Childhood, who told me NgeeAnn used to catch girls who wore shorts and slippers to school. -GASP- (credits: Bel)
honestly, that's like the official poly attire already. :p Amazing yea. (:
anw, the loh sistas and I are still bewildered by one sms. Mm...
i hope i will be not be a game master for combined yf next year . i've been game master since I started attending combined yf. that's like 3 years of game master. -.- tell me, am i such a 'game' person?
i don't know whether i should go for pre-camp tomorrow(today). i really need some time to be alone and PACK and finish up my BSF. Hmm...
i'll be off to camp from Mon to Sat. then on Sat, there's going to be breakout at ECP. i'll be moving on National day(sun). CHIN(my course's acronym -.- ) has a whole day activity held for year 1s on the next day(mon). tuesday, start of uni life and bukit panjang tuition.
I can't do any translation modules because the time clashes with core's. SIANS.
the system just killed my only purpose of choosing NTU instead of NUS. -.-"
and there isn't any decent Contemporary China modules that is available.
call me a wonderwoman
Monday, July 27, 2009 @ 1:55 PM
thankyou God for so holy and faithful thankyou God for being a comfort and rescue thankyou God for being the way, the true, the light thankyou God for being my God and my King thankyou God for being the reason I live thankyou God for pulling me back when I am at lost thankyou God for the brothers and sisters-in-Christ thankyou God for the way when I am clueless thankyou God for the encouragements and jiayous thankyou God for the blessings(:
-- my work at Isetan Scotts had ended with a big bang at mrbeancafe&bar. =) thankyou liwen for the eleven days thankyou kweiteng for covering my duty thankyou ruyu for the half day of nonsensical nonsense thankyou my dearest sweethearts who came down and said "hello" (: thankyou wuhan darlings + yin + jess for the supper time.
i'll be having NTU christianfellowship camp from tomorrow till fri. then my Hall Camp from next Monday till next Fri. :D and yes, i can finally go for bsf and sunday service, even during camp! :p somehow good to have someone from bp church as a camp leader. HAHA.
Goodbye NP, Hello NTU! :D
queen.
JOANNA
huiting
child of God
shalomite
12 jan
twenty
shalom bp church
habitudes
yf breakout
ntuccf
nanyang technological university
romans 5:1-11
Therefore, since we have been justified through faith,
we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ,
through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace
in which we now stand.
And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God.
Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings,
because we know that suffering produces perseverance;
perseverance, character; and character, hope.
And hope does not disappoint us,
because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit,
whom he has given us.
You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless,
Christ died for the ungodly.
Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous man,
though for a good man someone might possibly dare to die.
But God demonstrates his own love for us in this:
While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.
Since we have now been justified by his blood,
how much more shall we be saved from God's wrath through him!
For if, when we were God's enemies, we were reconciled to him through the death of his Son,
how much more, having been reconciled, shall we be saved through his life!
Not only is this so, but we also rejoice in God through our Lord Jesus Christ,
through whom we have now received reconciliation.